It starts at my toes
slowly working up my body
this sensation...
i press harder..
the room starts to spin.
I fall back onto my bed.
let it overcome me.
a bright red liquid
the sweet smell of blood
"I'm sorry."
I lick the precious liquid
feel it fill my mouth
and fall through my lips.
the music pounds my ears.
lying there.
looking from the cieling
my breathing sharp.
the numbness falls.
I pick up the blade...
and start again.